I’ll Be Awesome Tomorrow

Marian Sandmaier’s memoir is a provocative anti-self-help prescription, a bold argument for letting go of the seductive, perilous pursuit of perfection.

From the time she was eight years old, Marian Sandmaier was fixated on one shining goal, to make herself perfect. She had no interest in tweaks or enhancements: Her ambition was to achieve a full-on personality transplant, exchanging an awkward, uncertain girl for a young goddess who was wildly charming and totally immune to rejection. Over the next fifteen years, Sandmaier’s ceaseless efforts to hold herself to this impossible standard led to a destructive intimate relationship and an ever-deepening sense of failure. She would be perfect, damn it, or die trying.

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